My Mirror

 

MY MIRROR

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Anthonystjoseph

 

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I look in the mirror and I see me.

When you look at me,

you see the other me.

The only way to see me,

is to look into my mirror.

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Anthonystjoseph

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Terror

 

TERROR:

IF YOU DON’T BUILD IT, THEY WONT COME

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Anthonystjoseph

 

     Another part of history has been ripped from the fabric of time and changed; past, present, and future.  The Boston Marathon will never be the same and once again, neither will our lives.  To the cowardly terrorist with their homemade bombs and their homemade anger I say, “You can steal your way onto the tapestry of history via bombs and bullets but it is a thievery with an eternal price tag that you may not want to pay.”

     But most of all I would like to say to the MEDIA, “You are a main part of this equation…  Without you they would not do any of this.  I happen to live five minutes from the Aurora Mall were the mentally ill shooter killed all the people at the movie theater recently.  Of course I was saddened by the death of such innocence, but I was truly appalled when days later I unintentionally drove by the Aurora Mall and saw all the parasitic news crews still camped out and salivating over the excitement…  The media was there in droves camped out in massive news trucks willing to interview the local light post just to get what, MORE STORY! 

     Some in the media look at terroristic events as career builders and actually crave events like this to build their ratings and boost their personal careers.  The relationship between the terrorist and the media is like the relationship of the parasitic louse and the whale.  The parasitic louse spends its entire life on the skin of a whale…  Although the whale appears to be more intelligent than human beings, we as human beings are capable of removing most parasites.

     I simply say to the media, “Stop encouraging, stop enjoying, stop illuminating the lives and family of these terrorist… It is the illumination that they SEEK.”  Notice how I mentioned the Aurora Shootings and never mentioned the guy’s name that did it, TRY IT!  If they KNEW that you weren’t going to turn them into celebrities, if they knew that they weren’t going to go down in history, if they knew…  They would simply STOP.”

     I say to the media, “YOU do this…  It is you that they seek to tell their story and make them and their cause famous…  IT IS YOU!  YOU!” 

     I do not want to KNOW who they are…   I do NOT want to know their cause…  I also do not want to know how they did it because when YOU tell ME how they did it then YOU tell THEM how to continue to do it…  Why don’t I want to know?  Because of the methods they used to inform me.  When YOU stop then their cause goes unheard and they realize their method didn’t work.

     I say to the MEDIA that if you don’t build the platform for these mentally challenged fame seekers to stand upon and glorify themselves and their causes then they will STOP!  IF YOU DON’T BUILD IT, THEY WONT COME!

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My Conversations With God

 

MY CONVERSTIONS WITH GOD

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Anthonystjoseph

 

     So I guess I should explain this ability to converse with God since I have been letting you in on a ‘few’ of the discussions…  I grew up without a father, so my mother, who was a devout Catholic, always told me, “That’s just your Earth Father, God is your father.” Hey, I know she could have caused damage with this statement but I made it out okay.  So then when I go to school, which by the way is also Catholic, I am again indoctrinated with the nuns teaching me the prayer of all prayers, “Our Father, who art in Heaven…”  And then when we go to church the priest leads us in prayer, “Our Father, who art in Heaven…”  So as a small child I’m like, ‘okay, I guess he’s OUR Father’. 

     Well since I didn’t have an ‘earth’ father around the house, I would often think of this supposed and alleged Heavenly Father who was all powerful and all knowing and just ALL.  I contemplated and I contemplated.  I really wasn’t sure if someone was trying to pull my little kid legs but everyone seemed to pull for and believe in this heavenly dude controlling everything so I played along…  You know I’m lying…  Growing up with my crazy mama, God was right there in the house sitting at the dinner table eating chicken and asking for seconds he was so real.

     So this dude, who had everybody in MY world praying to him and bowing to him and just completely scared of him, seems to be running things.  Well as a young and sentient child I started to have a few problems with this widely proclaimed and widely accepted guardian of the matrix…  I remember the first time I really and truly thought to myself, ‘this matrix is a little wack’…  I’ve said it before because it’s true…  My mother and I were caught in my bedroom and surrounded by a spider.  Now my mom instilled a few things beside God in me and one was the fear of spiders…  This spider was so hideous and foreboding that I said to myself and I said to my mom, “Now WHY would God make something so ugly like that!  YOU said he created EVERYTHING!  WHAT’S WRONG WITH HIM?”  From that moment on, I’ve always kept a ‘side eye’ on God.

     Now I knew that night as I clenched my bed covers and begged the air not to let the spider crawl in my ear when I slept, because you know neither me nor my mama killed it…  I knew that night that when I was asking God over and over again WHY he created that spider that he wasn’t listening…  I knew in my heart that one of my kid legs was definitely longer from being pulled with these God stories.  I knew this because even my kid brain told me that if there was a God then he would probably most likely NOT make something as ugly as a spider. 

     I spent the following day trying to recover from the tortuous nocturnal thoughts of a spider attack and constantly giving God the ‘what-fors’ over this spider creation and of course getting no answer…  So over the years my problems with this guardian of the matrix, or as you like to call him, God, grew.  Over the years I would come to ask, challenge, and basically confront God about Ethiopia, unfair births, deformities, family members, bullies, family members, wars, family members, and oh yeah, did I say family members…  Don’t get me started on the madhouse of a family he dropped me into. 

     So as you question God’s decisions on ‘where he fastened the foundations’ and ‘where he laid the cornerstones’ you start a dialogue with the all powerful himself.  If you start these conversations from the presence of a pure heart with pure intentions then you can eventually feel his answers…  Now God is not too big on actually speaking words, or at least not words I’ll tell you yet.  I’ve told you of the man who stood up in church and said, “God talked to me” in my ‘He Who God Talks To’ piece and if you’ll remember, everyone pulled their kids closer in fear…

     I will tell you that if you want to know what God has to say and if you want to be able to hear it then you’re going to have to make your thoughts clear and pure and completely selfless.  I don’t think there is one of you on this planet who can’t hear God but I think there are a lot of you who will not listen.  Let’s start with a simple exercise; I’m going to help you.  Okay, what shall I use as my teaching tool?  I KNOW!  Let’s use the person I knew as a kid in Minnesota, who God has been screaming AT, as a lesson plan. 

     Now this ‘person’ in Minnesota has lost all her toes on one foot, had two strokes, one aneurism, AND can’t open one eye with ALL these problems being the direct result of her crack usage…  Well maybe you have some vice which I hope is not as bad as crack but just pick some vice that you KNOW you’re NOT supposed to do.  Now put that vice in front of you or if that’s too dangerous for your weak ass then just seriously think about doing it.  Now while it’s in front of you or you’re seriously thinking about doing it; it’s then that you can hear that little whisper of a voice that is saying, ‘don’t do it’.  Guess who that is?  THAT’S GOD!  Now some of it saying ‘don’t do it’ is truly your good sense but in that ‘Good’ ‘sense’ there is ‘GOD’ ‘SENSE’.

     God actually told me, or I should say inspired me, with his smart mouth to write this piece.  I was just minding my business watching the movie ‘Conversations With God’ which I have tried to watch several times but have never been able to watch due to its boredom level being so high!  You can always tell when these New Age messengers run out of truth or newness and start spinning out of control with CRAP!  I can actually physically feeI when they hit their brick walls of knowledge and start spewing garbage.  When I attempted to read the book ‘Conversations With God’, my garbage meter overloaded on the second or third page…  Sylvia Brown’s book, second chapter, CRAP!  Sylvia Brown got busted a few years back when a child she said was dead showed up alive and being held hostage years later.  I’m not like the guy in ‘Conversations With God’; I’m like Robert Duvall’s character in ‘The Apostle’;  I might grab up on you, I’m passion personified.  This time with the movie ‘Conversations’ I put it on not expecting much and decided to do something else around the house when I heard the lead of the movie say when he was confronted by a heckler, “If what you’re asking me is, did I make all of this stuff up, the answer is no.  I’ve wondered what you’re wondering.  Will anyone believe me, believe what I’m saying… believe where this came from? I only hope that you don’t disqualify or marginalize the message because it’s coming through such a fallible messenger.”  These are words and a question I’ve asked myself because believe me, the dark side knows to destroy the messenger BEFORE he gives the message and the dark side never takes a night off.  The dark side is so committed to destroying the message that it will try to destroy the message even when it’s a SEED.

     So as I’m loving what this man said and realizing that he may be a true messenger, I start to think about my own conversations with God and as usual he shows up cracking jokes…  We’ve become close over the decades…  He says, (I’m not going to tell you what he called me, you might question whether it was him; but I know his humor, it was him), so he says, “I wasn’t having conversations with YOU, you’ve been talking to yourself STUPID!”  He couldn’t even hide his laughter.  I really wish you would understand the level of this dudes comedy, he’s got some serious issues with jokes and practical ones are his favorites…  So after he stops laughing at making fun of me he exhales real heavy blowing out a few of my candles and then giggling a little more and then leaves as he turns and tells me, “Just write the piece Mister ‘Pick & Choose’”.  Then I try to mention my movie deal or my book deal and he just laughs and says, “Slow your roll”.

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Anthonystjoseph

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And

AND

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Anthonystjoseph

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Would you be brave enough to say to God on Judgment Day,

‘And’

Would you have lived your life in a manner where you can say to God on Judgment Day,

‘And’

Or will you have to explain?

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Pick & Choose

PICK & CHOOSE

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Anthonystjoseph

     I am amazed sometimes at how the Universe and its spiritual guides work…  I am dumbfounded, struck, and stuck in awe sometimes at the seemingly all encompassing spiritual matrix that we live in, or at least that I live in because the reality of life is that I can never be sure what world YOU live in.  I can only try to conceive the world that I am living in.  This evening I was directed by certain events to read Job 38 in the Bible and was shocked silly and stunned stupid with the fact that this Job 38 was apparently God talking directly to me… 

     You see, I tend to have regular arguments with God as to how he is handling things down here on this planet called Earth, or more to the point, how He is NOT handling things down here on Earth.  Sometimes to me, it seems that God is on a serious vacation or has just adopted a serious lack of empathy for our situation.  I have got to tell you again, since I have told him more than a million times, I really have some serious problems with the way he’s handling some of this mess we’re in.  God’s suppose to be omnipotent, right, all powerful, right, all knowing, right,…  Well GET ON IT!  We’re DROWNING HERE!

      So, you get the point, basically, it’s back and forth with me and God…  So I, like Job, who is the most famous pawn in mankind’s history, am faced with the struggle of events I am dealt.  And I’ve said it before but I’ll say it again, God generally wins these arguments or he leaves the room…  It’s always the last word with him.  I’m usually screaming when he leaves, ‘GET BACK HERE!’  Hey, we go way back, God and I, he knows me; and I know HIM.

     Well you know God rarely talks.  God is a man of few words, you know the old, ‘I AM’ sort of guy…  Well at least I thought he was a man of few words… 

      So after I get the huge hint from above this morning to go check out this certain Job Scripture I start to read Job 38 and I am shocked that God is finally talking!  I haven’t read every single part of the Bible nor have I read a lot of the Bible.  I tend to believe that God is in your heart and if there is only ONE BOOK that you can find God in then there is going to be a lot of the world left out and I just don’t think MY God is like that so I don’t think a ‘single’ BOOK is the way to GOD!  But there are some parts of the Bible and a lot of ‘other’ Holy Books that I really get off on.  So the truth is, I like to ‘pick and choose’ the stuff that rings true to MY heart.

     I happen to understand and comprehend the fact that most of the Bible was written by man and man alone.  I feel if you do want to feel the true God of whatever than you need to let it speak to your heart of truth.  I feel listening to the heart of good and the heart of truth will take you to God.  Again, for this reason, I haven’t read the whole Bible although I know most of the stories from church and Catholic School.  In my opinion, some of those fools in the Bible need to be put in check.  People like Leviticus really need to be put in check, when that guy is done throwing rocks at people there’s nobody left alive and standing but HIM, and I think he might even catch a rock or two. 

     I have always told this joke about how when I get to Heaven I put up my fists and say, “Okay, WHERE’S LEVITICUS!  Me and him about to go some rounds.”  The angels look at me funny and they all say, “You didn’t think HE was here, did you?”

     So I start to read Job 38 and apparently Job has lodged a lot of the same complaints at God that I have… You know the ones, why this, why that, why this, why THAT…  It’s a very long list I and Job have for God as in, ‘what were you thinking’.  Well I pick up in Job 38 that God has heard OUR complaints and he is truly pissed off and having a real life natural celestial temper tantrum. 

     He starts off with, “Who is this who darkens counsel by words without knowledge.”  Oh my, did you hear what God just said with THOSE words, he’s GOOD at it I’ll tell you THAT!  He basically just said, who is this numb skull, talking out of the side of his ASS!  I was like, ‘no he didn’t’… He was like, “YES I DID!”  You know he’s loud.  Then he went on to tell me, “Prepare myself like a man”, like he was getting ready to beat me down and calling me a punk.  I AM a man!  Told me things like, ‘he’ll question me and I’ll answer’, ‘shut up’, and so on…  Then he went on a tirade and told me “Where were you when I laid the foundations of the Earth?”  “Did I measure the Earth?”  Asking me things like “DID I fasten the foundations, DID I lay its cornerstone, DID I shut the sea in with doors, did I, did I, did I,…”  Geez, calm down dude, we’re giving you credit for all that, but what have you done for us lately?

     Then the Lord goes on to tell Job and I, he’s losing breath I can tell, “And here your proud waves must STOP!”  Oh goody gum drops, I don’t really take too kindly to people telling me what to do so you know this is not going to work, telling me to STOP.  I don’t really let anyone tell me what to do ever… There was that redneck in Gettysburg, Pennsylvania, who made me tinkle on myself a little but that’s a whole different story.  I didn’t know him like I know God.

     Although I am sure my proud waves will continue, I am going to read Job from beginning to end because I believe that Job and I are going to live on the same block in Heaven and hang out at the same clubs, because we both agree…  We are both proud men… 

     I guess I should just be thankful for all the laughs that God provides us with…  I think God is a comedian at heart.  I can see God on Judgment day when it’s my turn saying, “Oh goody gum drops, I have been waiting for this.  EVERYBODY SILENT!  It’s Mister Pick and Choose.  Hi Mister ‘Pick and Choose’.  I’m about to show you some ‘Pick and Choose’ alright.  I CHOOSE not to PICK YA!  Ha-ha that Mister Funny Man!”  Yeah, God got jokes.

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“I’m a philosopher.  I’m not an evangelist… to say, ‘God did it,’ and then just leave it at that?  That’s to abandon the search before it’s even begun.”~ ’The River Why’

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