Sunday, August 23, 2015

Spiritual Month VIII: Brisco


BRISCO!

by

Anthonystjoseph

     There was a time in my life where I had given up on all nonessential material needs.  It was a time that I basically just rested on my laurels, intelligence, and wit to survive.  I just simply stopped buying into the mentally indoctrinated materialistic pattern that’s ingrained in us by society that we have to have all the latest toys and gadgets of the material world in order to consider ourselves a success.  If you didn’t have the new car and the biggest house you were considered a loser.  It was a time where you might just find Anthonystjoseph barefooted and wearing unpolished cotton.  I worked in a convenience store, another one, in order to provide myself shelter and the weekly twelve pack of beer.  I was genuinely taking a time out and enjoying the air, the sun, the moon, the earth, and the people.  I also spent a lot of time studying the paranormal and the possibility of angels and spiritual intervention since I felt I had honestly already encountered these concepts on several different occasions.  A great friend who crossed my path during that time was named Brisco.

     Oh-de-doh! Oh-de-doh! Clickity-clack, clickity-clack.  Oh-de-doh.  That was Brisco.  He would just be walking down the sidewalks of Mesa, Arizona just loving life and smelling the wonderful air as he walked turning his head left and right to proudly announce his presence and check out the scene.  Brisco was one of those dogs who cherished every moment of his existence and just loved adventurous walks through his familiar neighborhood.  The oh-de-doh seemed to be the rhythm that his heart walked to while the clickity-clack was the sound of the nails on his paws hitting the cement as he walked.  Oh-de-doh, oh-de-doh, clickity-clack, clickity-clack. 

     I was the only one in the house that I lived in who enjoyed the stars and the moon of Arizona as much as Brisco so it fell to me to walk Brisco every evening.  It wasn’t that it was an assigned duty, it’s just that I looked forward to the walk as much as Brisco so I got the assignment.  I lived with a friend of the family who was involved in several different lines of illegal activities.  She had a gang of five men who took care of different aspects of her drug dealing and larceny.  Every now and then we would get a visit from some serious felon that would make you realize that you should watch ‘America’s Most Wanted’ more often.

     In studying the possible existence of angels and spiritual intervention I would often get my hands on any book that I felt had something to offer on the subject and just devour its contents.  You would be amazed at some of the true life encounters that you can read about if you just visit your local library and seek out the subject.  I had gone to the library downtown Mesa and found a really incredible book.  It reminded me of a book I had read a long time ago which was titled, ‘An Objective Inquiry into the Existence of Guardian Angels’, written by Pierre Jovanovic.  Mister Jovanovic was a journalist from Paris who decided to travel the world and gather firsthand accounts and true stories of people who had died for a period of more than five minutes and had been revived.  Some of the individuals in the book had died for up to fifteen minutes or more.  The individual significance and difference in Mister Jovanovic’s book was that it was the first time that I had read an account of someone going to a dark place.  Generally in all these stories everyone goes to flowers and light and a garden of ancestors.

     The book I found in the Mesa Library was the same type of book giving more firsthand accounts of angelic encounters but in this book the people didn’t have to die in order to be visited by angelic intervention.  I just sat on the couch, with Brisco at my side, reading the short stories of different angelic visits that people were sharing through this wonderful book.  Brisco, who was an extremely small dog who’s toe nails were half the size of him, which is why they made so much ‘clickity-clack’ noise when he walked, would just rest his head on my arm as I read.  I was almost to the end of the book one day when Brisco decides to start licking my hand.  When a dog starts licking your hand it’s cool for a minute and then it goes to a weird place if it continues too long.  Well Briscos licking of my hand was rapidly approaching that weird place at ninety miles per hour.  I had to move my hand and stop him or proceed downtown to get a marriage license so we would be legal if it went further. 

     After I ended Brisco’s salivic marriage proposal I returned to the story I was reading where it ended by saying that angels can be animals as well and come as creatures such as cats and dogs.  I look down at Brisco and just rub his back as he enjoys the attention.  I had no clue that this would be the last day that I had Brisco in my life. 

     Later that day one of the felons who was sure to make a future appearance on ‘America’s Most Wanted’ stopped by the house and needed a desperate favor.  According to his Crystal Meth induced story, the authorities or his neighbors were after his pit bull so he needed a place to stash him.  My lovely gang moll of a roommate gave him the okay to hide the dog in our, or I should say her, backyard.  The lovely future felon of the world surprisingly having all of his teeth still in his mouth goes to retrieve the wanted pit bull.  He returns to the house with a dog that looked like he had spent five years in Michael Vick’s school for future fight dogs.  We all froze as the future felon walked the obviously dangerous dog through the house and to the backyard.  The gang moll looks at me all bug eyed and says, “Did you see the way that dog looked at you Tony!”  I looked at her with wobbly knees and didn’t answer.  I was aware of the swastika on the felon’s neck and the obvious fact that I was the only black person and maybe the dog had never seen a black person or maybe it was just my hair but the pit bull really did display some undesired attention in my direction.  After the patio door was shut and we all let out a breath finally exhaling since the clear and present danger was over we returned to our conversation, all the while keeping a side eye on the patio door in case it came crashing down as the beast decided to feed.  This dog was obviously dangerous and capable of changing your life if he got his jaws on you.

     An hour or so later, ‘Skeeter the tweeker’ comes by with some bicycle that he stole from outside of a Taco Bell and wants a bag of crystal meth from my roommate, the Mesa, Arizona version of Shelly Winters as a drug dealer.  We’re all standing and sitting in the kitchen bravely making ourselves visible to the ferocious monster of a pit bull in the back yard who’s just glaring at us through the patio door window.  ‘Skeeter the tweeker’ is just rambling on, as most tweekers do, just babbling about his latest petty theft while picking at a crystal induced pimple on his face.  All of a sudden, as he looks out the patio door and finishes his sentence he slides the patio door open.  The oxygen escapes from the room as the pit bull from hell enters the room at a fast pace and everybody freezes including dumb struck Skeeter who finally realizes he’s in the presence of a death dealer, a pit bull who clearly had a history of steroid abuse.  The pit bull heads straight for me, the only African American person in the room.  I’m finished. 

     All of a sudden little Brisco jumps in front of me and stands in front of the pit bull.  The pit bull stops on top of Brisco and Brisco is just standing under all four legs of the pit bull and nobody is moving or making one sound.  We all are frozen in fear as to what is going to happen next.  Then the owner of the pit bull makes the first move.  He grabbed the pit bulls tail and that’s when it happened.   The pit bull just made one quick split second move and Brisco’s head was in his jaw.  Brisco’s right eyeball had popped out of the eye socket and was hanging down by a string of nerves three inches long.  I screamed in horror and ran to the bedroom and threw myself down on the bed and began to cry.  Why did this have to happen?  Why was this world such a cruel place?  Why? Why?  WHY?

   I gathered myself and went back into the kitchen as the punk with the swastika and the animal steroids put his dog back in the back yard.  Bricso lay in a heap on the dining room floor with his eyeball hanging on the side of him where my overly licked hand had been just a few hours earlier.  He was still breathing in little pants of breath as his mangled body struggled to live.  Brisco had made the most heroic sacrifice that could truly be considered an intervention and saved me from the pit bull.  Without fear of his own harm and destruction he stepped up to the plate and took one for the team.  The book was right and the stories were real.  Angels can be cats or dogs as well.

By

Anthonystjoseph

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Sunday, August 16, 2015

Spiritual Month VII: The Theory of Nothing


 

THE THEORY OF NOTHING

by

Anthonystjoseph


     HBO is premiering the movie, ‘The Theory of Everything’, about the life of the celebrated physicist Doctor Stephen Hawking who is confined to a wheelchair by the crippling disease ALS and although a lot of the world is enamored with this gentleman, I am not.  I remember the week he made worldwide headlines with the most startling and illegitimate claim ever because it was the same week I got startling and legitimate news about my life.  It was the week the doctors informed me that if I did not undergo heart surgery then my life would come to an early end.  I decided that I did not want to endure the drastic heart surgery they were suggesting and referred to Stephen Hawking’s idiotic claim when I told them no to the operation.  You see, that week, Doctor Stephen Hawking had made worldwide news stating that there was no such thing as Heaven.  The reason I say that his claim is idiotic is due to the FACT that you cannot as a human say whether heaven exist or not.  You can say that you do or do not believe in heaven but you cannot say that it does or does not exist with certainty because as a human you cannot be sure.  However, I can say that I do believe in Heaven because I know what I have felt, I know what I have seen.  So as the doctors tried to surround me in my hospital room with specialist, I informed them all that I am NOT Stephen Hawking and I know I have a place to go to so the answer is a ‘no’ on your barbaric heart surgery just to keep me around for your new Mercedes. 

     As one of the doctors smiled at my reference to Stephen Hawking, I politely excused myself and headed toward the door and my own efforts towards good health.  So I am going to try and watch this movie and try and understand what this man in his crippling situation has led him to believe that there is no Heaven and how on earth his spirituality has been crippled as well to help him get to the decisive decision that Heaven definitely does not exist.  I must say, I myself have led a life of struggle and persecution but these factors have seemed to lead me closer to God whereas they have led Stephen Hawking further from God.  Here we go…

     Although I thought I was going to be bored with this man’s physicist mind and life, I found myself tearing up at the thirteen minute mark of the movie due to realizing the remarkable nature of his mind and knowing the direction his physical deterioration was going to take was an overwhelming feeling and my emotions poured out in his direction.  While still in college he is already discounting the idea of a God or higher being saying the idea alone of a higher being would get in the way of his scientific expectations on himself.  I realize it is not the crippling ALS disease that has driven him from God, the idea of no such thing as a higher being was there before he even knew of his illness.

     Young Stephen Hawking is still in college when he collapses on the sidewalk and is then diagnosed with Lou Gehrig’s disease (ALS).  He is told by the doctor that he has two years to live…  Still no sign of God in his thoughts.

     Although Stephen continues his life confined to a wheelchair and eventually losing his ability to speak he carries on in his teachings.  He writes a very successful book titled ‘A Brief History of Time’ and goes on to meet the Queen of England and tour the world giving lectures with an electronic apparatus that gives him the access to communicating his thoughts through electronically spoken words.  His wife, who does believe in God, pushes him in the area of spiritual belief and we eventually see a break in his atheistic thoughts.  He continues to live past the doctors expectations of two years as I continue to live past mine and Stephen continues to last decades upon decades.

     Towards the end of the film, Stephen Hawking is asked in a cinematically climactic moment, “Professor Hawking, you have said that you do not believe in God.  Do you have a philosophy of life that helps you?”  Mister Hawking takes a long pause.  He then watches an audience member drop her pen and you are led by the film to remember decades ago when he first started dropping things which were the first signs of his illness.   He then imagines himself getting up from his wheelchair and walking into the audience and picking up the pen and handing it to the woman.  With an extremely contemplative and almost sorrowful look on his face he eventually replies, “It is clear that we are just an advanced breed of primates on a minor planet orbiting around a very average star in the outer suburb of one among a hundred billion galaxies, but ever since the dawn of civilization people have craved for an understanding of the underlying order of the world.  Fairmont [sic] told me something very special about the boundary conditions of the Universe.  And what can be more special than that there is no boundary, and there should be no boundary to human endeavor.  We are all different.  However bad life may seem, there is always something you can do and succeed at.  Where there is life, there is hope.”  So in his reference to hope it turns out that Mister Stephen Hawking is starting to realize that there may be something out there larger than us and possibly guiding and watching over us…  At least that is what he is now letting the masses believe in regards to his thoughts.  Well I will tell you that there is definitely something out there guiding and watching over us and in the vein of my stories this month which all fall under the category of ‘spiritual’, my next story will prove it…

     But in regards to Doctor Stephen Hawking and his theories on life and the universe I will still stick to my own theory.  For while some call his works the ‘The Theory of Everything’, I shall call his work and suggestion that there is no God and that there is no Heaven, ‘The Theory of Nothing’.

By

Anthonystjoseph

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Tuesday, August 11, 2015

Spiritual Month VI: Sent By God


 
SENT BY GOD

by

Anthonystjoseph

     Life is different for all of us in this world, but for some, it is very different.  Some people on this planet have actually been sent by God to complete important missions to put special plans in place and complete the destiny that God has set forth for the world and YOU.  Often, life with a mission and a destiny is a lonely life that can sometimes be a bit depressing.

     Life with a mission or sometimes many missions can be lonely for some because God and your path don’t let too many others upset said missions because sometimes others can get in the way of these missions; so consequently, at times, many ‘others’ are not allowed.  It can also be lonely because when the missions are many, the paths traveled are also many.  Sometimes one cannot carry many friends or acquaintances on paths that continuously travel all over the world to the next mission.

     Life with a special mission can also be depressing because as a missioner you do not have a life of your own.  You spend your entire life looking around and seeing others who are allowed to do whatever they want while you are guided and forced by forces unseen to various paths and tasks that are not of your own choosing.  You constantly find yourself saying to God, “Why me?”  “Why can’t I choose my own existence?”  “Why can’t I do what they do?”  It can be depressing watching others live a life of freedom while you live a life of being commanded.

     At the same time you find yourself getting depressed, you have to remind yourself that for some reason you were chosen by God.  God himself felt that you were worthy of his tasks.  God himself sent angels to help you along the way when you need their help.  God himself chose YOU! 

     I can only imagine the rewards are plenty for those that are chosen.  I can only imagine the gifts to come.  But what I can tell you; the rewards of completing a task and seeing God’s work are more wonderful than anything the ‘free’ achieve.  The rewards of seeing God work through your words and deeds are beyond comprehension too many.  Very few can even believe the stories when and if you try to convey a blessing you received or conveyed to another.  Very few are chosen.

     So to those that are chosen I say…  Do not get depressed when watching the free.  Do not feel sad when feeling alone.  For you are never alone and never on your own.  Even though there are few, we are many.

By

Anthonystjoseph

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Sunday, August 9, 2015

Spiritual Month V: The Soul


 

~ The Soul ~

By

Anthonystjoseph

A tear, A symbol

A symbol, A sign

God is still saying

This soul is mine

All challenge is growth

The role of the soul

One never develops

Until one grows

You, the developer

Of more than your soul

You, the teacher

The role of the soul

~Anthonystjoseph

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