THE MATRIX
by
Anthonystjoseph
For those of us who have chosen to walk
our paths without our collective
heads in the dirt, we have realized that we are not alone. We have realized that there is a higher
presence, a higher power, a higher purpose than what just everyday life
brings. Some choose to accept the higher
power. Some choose to study the higher
power. Some choose to search for the
higher power. And then there are those
that deny the existence of the higher presence all together; the head in the
sand folks I previously mentioned. Well
the truth and factual answer is that there is a higher power at work on our
planet and in our world and that truth is only as blurred or obvious as you
choose it to be in your world…
They say and it is almost always proven to
be true that there is a ‘curse in every blessing and a blessing in every
curse’. Well I was blessed with an
intellectual mind that has cursed me with seeing more pain in the world and in
that sight there is also more truth. I
realized at a very young age that someone was pulling the strings that I could
not see… I realized that someone was
masterminding this world I was currently breathing and existing in and ‘that’ someone or something was choosing to remain anonymous. I was really quiet as a young child because I
knew something was up. I knew that
someone was playing a game; a very serious game that seemingly, everyone was
involved in. My antennae were up! I kept waiting for someone to jump out into
my young world and say, “SURPRISE! We
were just playing with you! April
FOOLS!” I was just sure that in my young
world someone was going to jump out and declare me the original of all April
Fools and laugh at the best prank ever!
As that young kid I could clearly tell and
definitely knew that something was going on in our world that was more than the
naked eye could see. There was more than
the evident colors of the rainbow that we knew about. That I knew about. Who
was it? What was it? Why was it? Where was it? How does
it? My questions were limitless and they
would lead me down a life filled with more questions and sprinkled with answers
and a head that was clearly wobbling free of the sand.
Well the month of April had come and gone
by my seventh birthday quite a few times and still no one had come forth and
declared the playing of the biggest April Fools’ joke ever. The friends, family, and others that had surrounded me throughout my life at that point were
going to continue to walk around like aimless sheep in a herd and pretend that
life was as simple as it presented itself.
Looking back, I like the ‘aimless
happy sheep’ path, but I digress.
So, I am walking through life as a quiet
child having an inquisitive ear searching for what I feel is important
information being discussed or written regarding this secretive world we live
in and trying to figure it all out. My
mother takes me to church and sends me to Catholic School where the idea of
‘God’ is over emphasized and our clear and apparent higher power is given its
name. In Catholic Church and school our
higher power and ever present caretaker is given more than a name, he’s given a
family…
As I sat in church or school, I don’t know
which setting I was in or when it happened but I could not and would not wrap
my head around the idea of a God coming down and impregnating a human virgin
and her giving birth to God’s son and then us or more importantly ‘me’ spending
the rest of eternity worshiping this God, the Virgin, and their KID!
I left the theory of Jesus behind very
early in life! I could see way too many
stars in the sky as a kid and our small world only had one of those stars. Everything was too big for one kid born to a ‘virgin’ to be in charge of all of it and everyone in the world
included in the deal… It just didn’t
seem logical to me.
Personally, if you choose to believe that
Jesus is your ‘only’ way to glory than your soul has two problems; one, you need Jesus! Two, he’s overbooked! In my opinion, a soul that is content doesn’t
‘need’ anything or anyone. I was still
this young child when in church my mother pulled out the long padded benches
designed for your knees that the Catholics are indoctrinated to bend down and
worship on. I looked over at my mom as
she kneeled to pray to her God and thought, ‘eternity’; REALLY! I don’t think so!
This God my mom was kneeling to in church
was not a benevolent person; the God she was kneeling to was a God that wanted
to be worshipped and even my young mind knew that that was not a good deal. The God that my heart led me to believe in
was a God who loved me and wanted the best for me and in no way wanted me on my
knees for eternity!
Please don’t misunderstand me. I understand my mother’s belief and her
position. It is hard to live in this
world without some kind of understanding that there is a higher power looking
after and over us… A pacifier if you
will. There are many pacifiers in the
matrix to help us through. If there were
no pacifiers we would all be a bunch of self-fed idiots feeding on each
other. As adults, our spiritual minds
need these pacifiers just like babies need their counterparts. But as spiritual adults, as human souls, I
think we need to realize these spiritual pacifiers are just that! They are spiritual pacifiers designed by
other humans to get you by until the real milk comes along. The milk of truth. The truth of who or what is running
our world and why and how they are running it, the Matrix.
By
Anthonystjoseph
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“Religion is regarded
by the common people as true, by the wise as false, and by the rulers as
useful.”
~Seneca the Younger
